Haven't blogged in ages. So here's the summary of the past few weeks.
- Started at new school, made two nice friends, still absolutely hate it with a passion though.
- The first week I actually wanted to die, I hated it more than I do now, but it's getting better.
- Doing Visart2AB, LOVE IT.
- Soundwave, Joey and Britney in 11 days!
- Joey and I have been going out for about 5 months now. Our sixth month anniversary is on the 24th of March and I want to suprise him by going up and being at his house when he comes home from school, I think that'd be awesome, I really really really want to do it.
- Started painting and drawing more.
- Motivation towards school work keeps dropping and dropping and dropping and dropping...
- I <3 xbox 360, Halo, Dead Space, Spyro and all things gaming. Xbox live has been great except for the presence of my brother who constantly fights. Forming friendship with Joey's best friend, Justin, and we've had a few DnMs which I like. Team Doubles buddddy.
- Skillet and Anberlin are my new loves - Comatose, Open Wounds and Paperthin Hymn.
- Valentines day yesterday! Got flowers and many gifts from Joey, supa supa happy.
Goodbye for now, not forever.
xx YOUR SCREAM IS BURNING THROUGH MY VEINS
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Sunday, January 10, 2010
I'll never give up on what's possibly...
In town, with him. Loving it. I don't ever want to leave. Staying with just my dad is so relaxing, he's very good company but at the same time leaves me to my ow devices, always makes sure I'm ok, I help him out with chores, and he helps me, and the best part is there's no little brother screaming about, it's just...perfect.
Just came back from his house, slept there for two nights, it was very nice, but towards the end we both got very tired. Mostly we just played around on the computer, watched movies, played xbox. He and his friend are determined to make me better than my brother, they claim I already am but I think not. This apparently starts with my gamerscore. I awoke this morning to find him sitting next to me playing the Halo 3 campaign 'on my behalf', sure it gets my gamerscore up (0 to 590 in a few days with their excellent help :D) but I'd rather play the campaign myself, get the achievements myself, which I was doing.
Oh! Epic epic epic event. His mums friend, Lee, came over, she does flower readings. I was asked to pick a flower (I chose a frangipani), concentrate on it, and put a question into it, and she would read the flower, picking up and telling me anything she could, and answer my question in the progress. I trusted her as she didn't know me, although the things she told me it was like she was inside my head. The first thing she told me was that I was a very kind person, I was determined, I knew what I wanted and I would get what I wanted. She picked that I loved motorbikes, but my parents thought they were dangerous. Apparently his cat, Tails, liked me a lot, and she could tell I loved animals, loved being 'surrounded' by them, and she said I would be going into a career with animals, almost certainly. I grinned when she said that and told her I wanted to be a vet, she said I would almost definitely get what I wanted, and if I didn't become a vet I would be working in a hospital of some sort as I had a natural talent for it, helping people. She said she saw "a new schoolbag" and told me I'd be getting a new schoolbag of some sort, picking up that I was going to a new school. I told her I was and she said I would do very well there, I would have no trouble making friends. That was a huge relief. She picked my interests in maths, english and science, and saw that I had trouble with my social sciences, in particular history. (I'm so sorry I'm rambling about this but it was so exciting). She said she saw me surrounded by water, like I lived near a beach or loved swimming (both of which are true). She saw me surrounded by music as well, and told me I loved it.
But by far the two most exciting things she told me was the answer she gave me to my question, and the news that I have a sixth sense. I think if I do, I would have gotten it from my nan, who also does flower readings, meditation, spirtual communication, OBE's etc., as does my dad. I'm was very very intrigued by that and intend to investigate it further. It might be the reason I can always pick when something's wrong with him, even if he insists he's fine I'm always right, and I can tell when he's lying or hiding something despite his usual success in concealing things like that. It was funny, after she told me that, we were walking around the houe, him behind me, and I had a hunch he was going to try and dack me and quickly grabbed onto my pants, followed by him yelling "What the fuck? How did you know? I was just about to dack you! I literally just had the thought." and then joking about my 'sixth sense'. She told me to always go with my gut feeling, it would keep me on the right track.
About halfway into the reading he left the room to go pick a flower of his own, and whether on purpose or not, Lee chose this moment to answer my question. I had asked how long he and I would last. I didn't tell her this question, she told me not to. She said that she could see him and I being together for a very long time, and that it was 'rare' that two good people were so compatible, it was usually a good person and a bad person. She said we were healthy for each other, and helped each other, were made for each other. She cautiously followed by telling me that we were 'soul mates', and when I didn't freak out at that, she continued using that term. This elated me, I was almost exhilerated, the smile on my face must have been ridiculous.
He came back in and got his reading, she told him the same thing, and again used the term soul mates. I'm not sure what he thought of that, but he seemed to be in a very good mood as I was, afterwards. She said he would be going to university in Perth, and we had often talking about whether I would move to Melbourne with him or he'd come to Perth and stay with me.
I've lost my train of thought...confusion.
xx
Just came back from his house, slept there for two nights, it was very nice, but towards the end we both got very tired. Mostly we just played around on the computer, watched movies, played xbox. He and his friend are determined to make me better than my brother, they claim I already am but I think not. This apparently starts with my gamerscore. I awoke this morning to find him sitting next to me playing the Halo 3 campaign 'on my behalf', sure it gets my gamerscore up (0 to 590 in a few days with their excellent help :D) but I'd rather play the campaign myself, get the achievements myself, which I was doing.
Oh! Epic epic epic event. His mums friend, Lee, came over, she does flower readings. I was asked to pick a flower (I chose a frangipani), concentrate on it, and put a question into it, and she would read the flower, picking up and telling me anything she could, and answer my question in the progress. I trusted her as she didn't know me, although the things she told me it was like she was inside my head. The first thing she told me was that I was a very kind person, I was determined, I knew what I wanted and I would get what I wanted. She picked that I loved motorbikes, but my parents thought they were dangerous. Apparently his cat, Tails, liked me a lot, and she could tell I loved animals, loved being 'surrounded' by them, and she said I would be going into a career with animals, almost certainly. I grinned when she said that and told her I wanted to be a vet, she said I would almost definitely get what I wanted, and if I didn't become a vet I would be working in a hospital of some sort as I had a natural talent for it, helping people. She said she saw "a new schoolbag" and told me I'd be getting a new schoolbag of some sort, picking up that I was going to a new school. I told her I was and she said I would do very well there, I would have no trouble making friends. That was a huge relief. She picked my interests in maths, english and science, and saw that I had trouble with my social sciences, in particular history. (I'm so sorry I'm rambling about this but it was so exciting). She said she saw me surrounded by water, like I lived near a beach or loved swimming (both of which are true). She saw me surrounded by music as well, and told me I loved it.
But by far the two most exciting things she told me was the answer she gave me to my question, and the news that I have a sixth sense. I think if I do, I would have gotten it from my nan, who also does flower readings, meditation, spirtual communication, OBE's etc., as does my dad. I'm was very very intrigued by that and intend to investigate it further. It might be the reason I can always pick when something's wrong with him, even if he insists he's fine I'm always right, and I can tell when he's lying or hiding something despite his usual success in concealing things like that. It was funny, after she told me that, we were walking around the houe, him behind me, and I had a hunch he was going to try and dack me and quickly grabbed onto my pants, followed by him yelling "What the fuck? How did you know? I was just about to dack you! I literally just had the thought." and then joking about my 'sixth sense'. She told me to always go with my gut feeling, it would keep me on the right track.
About halfway into the reading he left the room to go pick a flower of his own, and whether on purpose or not, Lee chose this moment to answer my question. I had asked how long he and I would last. I didn't tell her this question, she told me not to. She said that she could see him and I being together for a very long time, and that it was 'rare' that two good people were so compatible, it was usually a good person and a bad person. She said we were healthy for each other, and helped each other, were made for each other. She cautiously followed by telling me that we were 'soul mates', and when I didn't freak out at that, she continued using that term. This elated me, I was almost exhilerated, the smile on my face must have been ridiculous.
He came back in and got his reading, she told him the same thing, and again used the term soul mates. I'm not sure what he thought of that, but he seemed to be in a very good mood as I was, afterwards. She said he would be going to university in Perth, and we had often talking about whether I would move to Melbourne with him or he'd come to Perth and stay with me.
I've lost my train of thought...confusion.
xx
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Oh, Florida please be still tonight.
Don't disturb this love of mine.
Corpse Bride - Emily <3
I watched Coraline for the first time the other day, it is officially one of my favourite movies, along with The Corpse Bride, Mulan, and Nightmare Before Christmas. Tim Burton, you rock. My love for stop motion animation is infinite. Harvie Krumpet rocks too, I must see Mary and Max, tis made by the same director.
STOP MOTION ANIMATION CLAYMATION NATION GENERATION
Not sure why I did that but it's out there. I'm super bored, but I've discovered the cure, drawing. I rug up and go outside, sit in the sea breeze and draw/paint/write. It's quite relaxing, maybe by the end of the holidays I might have some talent.
xx
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
I miss you quite terribly.
Here's some amateur art for you, scanned from my book.
This one I did about half an hour ago, I sat outside and it started off being a realistic sketch of the garden, and when I had the skeleton of everything down on the page I started darkening it until it turned into some morbid cartoon.
This I started a long time ago and only just finished sometime this week. It had a meaning, I think I was watching the news (a rare occurrence) and was thinking about societies standards.
It's my parents anniversary today, so they booked a hotel and my brother and I were abandoned, all on our own in the house for whole night. I've been switching from the computer to Halo ODST with my brother, I've gotten better since the start of the day.
Match 1: 25 4
Match 2: 25 9
Match 3: 25 15
So I've progressed from losing by 21 kills, to 10 kills. At least there's an improvement in my losing streak. Maybe tomorrow I can actually *shockhorror* win a match?!
*dundun* xx
Monday, December 21, 2009
I'm falling even more in love with you.
Letting go of all I've held on too.
Are you trying to take a photo of my impressive package?
I wasn't but ok. He's back home now, and my flights are bookedto see him in two weeks time, *happyface*.
I'm not sure what I'm feeling, I'm a very solitary person and when you've spent 24/7 with one person for two weeks, despite how much fun it was, it's nice to have a break, but pretty soon I'll start missing him again.
xx
p.s. It's your inner gayness coming out.
Did you just say I have a big anus?
When you think about it they do sort of rhyme.
Oh! I got m tragus pierced *ecstatic*, it was definitely the most painful, mum said my legs were even kicking. I have 8 piercings now, my goal is 12. I won't tell you where they all are ;) and a tattoo or two, only small tasteful ones though.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
This is the last night you'll spend alone.
Look me in the eyes so I know you know, I'm everywhere you want me to be.
He played on the xbox pretty much all of today, it was kind of boring. I wanted to ask him if he wanted to do something together but I'd have felt bad or would've been paranoid about him not wanting to be with me. Eventually we went to the park with my brother and mum, that was nice. But I've been getting restless, being at home constantly, pretty much confined to my room, the study and lounge. I'm usually a "homebody" but a week of not leaving the house is a little much. Whenever I suggest going somewhere, he's very reluctant so I don't push it.
Come on, let's go out,
Please don't make a scene.
I just want a little adventure,
no, not from the fucking TV screen.
The only adventure you like,
comes from a game.
I'm so sorry to inform you,
I don't feel the same.
xx
He played on the xbox pretty much all of today, it was kind of boring. I wanted to ask him if he wanted to do something together but I'd have felt bad or would've been paranoid about him not wanting to be with me. Eventually we went to the park with my brother and mum, that was nice. But I've been getting restless, being at home constantly, pretty much confined to my room, the study and lounge. I'm usually a "homebody" but a week of not leaving the house is a little much. Whenever I suggest going somewhere, he's very reluctant so I don't push it.
Come on, let's go out,
Please don't make a scene.
I just want a little adventure,
no, not from the fucking TV screen.
The only adventure you like,
comes from a game.
I'm so sorry to inform you,
I don't feel the same.
xx
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Feel your every heartbeat.
Feel your every heartbeat
Feel you on these empty nights
Calm the ache, stop the shakes
You clear my mind
You're my escape
From this messed up place
'Cause you let me forget
You numb my pain
How can I tell you just all that you are
What you do to me
You're better than drugs
your love is like wine
Feel you comin' on so fast
Feel you comin' to get me high
You're better than drugs
Addicted for life
Feel you comin' on so fast
Feel you comin' on to get me high
Feel you when I'm restless
Feel you when I cannot cope
You're my addiction, my prescription, my antidote
You kill the poison
Ease the suffering
Calm the rage when I'm afraid
To feel again
How can I tell you just all that you are
What you do to me
Feel your every heartbeat
Feel you on these empty nights
You're the strength of my life
Feel your every heartbeat
Feel you on these empty nights
Feel your every heartbeat
Feel you come to get me high
Feel you on these empty nights
Calm the ache, stop the shakes
You clear my mind
You're my escape
From this messed up place
'Cause you let me forget
You numb my pain
How can I tell you just all that you are
What you do to me
You're better than drugs
your love is like wine
Feel you comin' on so fast
Feel you comin' to get me high
You're better than drugs
Addicted for life
Feel you comin' on so fast
Feel you comin' on to get me high
Feel you when I'm restless
Feel you when I cannot cope
You're my addiction, my prescription, my antidote
You kill the poison
Ease the suffering
Calm the rage when I'm afraid
To feel again
How can I tell you just all that you are
What you do to me
Feel your every heartbeat
Feel you on these empty nights
You're the strength of my life
Feel your every heartbeat
Feel you on these empty nights
Feel your every heartbeat
Feel you come to get me high
I discovered a playlist on his iPod titled with my name. I asked him if I could look and he quickly whisked the iPod away, apparently I can't look because it's not finished. He showed me one song though, this one, Your Better than Drugs by Skillet. It is now my favourite song, for now at least, they change daily. It's been exactly a week since he's been here, one more to go. We're settling into a routine, he wakes up first, comes and lies on my bed trying to wake me up, we get up and do our own thing for an hour or two then start watching a movie or playing Tekken. I like it, I don't want him to leave, and I don't want the holidays to ever end.
Without you I've only just pulled through, and when you leave you take my soul with you.
xx
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